Twenty-Three and Unraveling
09.10.22 If I had a dollar for every time that I’ve asked myself “why do I feel like this?” …… I don't know what it is I want but at the same time, I know. I'm trying my best to enjoy and love life and I can honestly say that I am doing much better than I was months ago. I feel different too- in a good way. I recognize all the change and growth going on. I am grateful for that. However, there are times where I can feel the darkness creeping in. I understand- The tears keep flowing as I try to write this. Oh my. Sorry, I froze for a moment. You know after all this self reflection and journaling/writing that I do, I sometimes question if I really am the problem. The problem being everything I feel and what I think and stuff… I question it all. They say we are in control of our thoughts right? Okay, and I know that I am self aware and strong minded. I know this about myself, okay? So yes, I am in control- but who is to say that I am not easily influenced by others? I don'...
